You're Getting Married Instead of What?

So last night I had a dream that my brother, who just turned his mission papers in, got married before he got his mission call. I was so upset. I couldn't believe that after all the preparation for a mission he's done that he wouldn't go, especially when he was so close. No one else in my dream seemed particularly happy about it, but I was the only one who was so distraught over it. I was so upset that when I woke up from the dream, I still felt tense and tired, like I hadn't slept well at all.

Now I know that I said that I wasn't going to post my interpretations in this blog, but I posted a ton of thoughts yesterday, and am going to do so again today.

I was thinking about the dream while getting myself breakfast (a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios, what else?), and it hit me. What if the dream isn't about my brother at all, but about me? Is somewhere deep inside me afraid that if I get married and decide not to practice law but have kids that I'll have wasted an education?

I don't think the dream is saying that I shouldn't get married and have kids instead of practice law, and I don't think it's saying that I shouldn't practice law instead of getting married and having kids, I think it was letting me know that this is still a topic that I am unsure about, that I should think a lot more about before making either decision.